Davida, my beautiful sister
Posted by RISE International | Filed under Children of God, Eulogies, The Family International
For Davida
Davida, my beautiful sister, died at the age of 24 from an overdose of heroin. She was in her eyes an only child. She had left The Family with her mom as a child. Dad had made no effort at all to be a father to her; this caused her a great deal of hurt and pain and she finally gave up. She didn’t know about all her brothers and sisters and how close by we were.
I am saddened and angry that I only knew of her existence a few years before she died but with no way of finding her, now, it is too late.The Family mocks their children when they break the family ties and bonds that could save a person. Having people around who love and care for you gives you a mirror of yourself. She never found her mirror and when there was a chance it told her she wasn’t good enough, not worth it. The lords work came first, being out of the family was a sin, feeling hurt, pain and rejection was a weakness of hers rather than the fault of her upbringing and those who were given the responsibility to love and cherish her, to make her feel safe and valued. She numbed the pain and began taking heroin. That too was a sin and her a sinner.
Where is the compassion, the love for the real lost and lonely as she so sadly was? My father still hasn’t told us about his daughter himself. We would never have known if it hadn’t have been for my sister who met her once when they were both 21.
I wish she could have known her many half brothers and sisters. I wish she could have known how much she was loved and that she wasn’t alone, that I wanted to meet her so much. I am sorry that she struggled and saw no end. It breaks my heart that it didn’t have to be this way. She will be remembered by us.
Little things make me smile when I think of her, we had the same taste in jewelery and our leather jackets are identical. Those eyes, beautiful big eyes and cheeky smile. I imagine her dancing as she loved to do.
May she rest in peace!
(Kristina)